Some of you have probably noticed that I have not been submitting recently.
I have a reason for that, allow me to explain:
Firstly, life. Life does tend to get in the way of our own personal hobbies and such, but that's not the main element that is keeping me away.
The fact is, as of now, I have mostly, or only, self-portraits in my gallery.
I don't want to be the artist on DeviantArt that spams the site with self-portraits.
I do love to do them, not out of conceitedness, but simply because I enjoy them very much, and I feel like I'm playing dress-up, and who doesn't love that.
The thing is, I know I have more artistic ability than that, and please forgive me for saying so in a "matter-of-fact" way, as I have, but I believe it to be true.
However, most of the time my low confidence gets in the way entirely.
If I do create something artistic I tend to over-scrutinize it and decide it's garbage, and indeed, I trash it. I have always trashed drawings and such, for many years now, it's a bad habit.
The problem, obviously is that I lack confidence in myself.
Now, some of you might be confused with that statement because of the fact that I so willingly submit photos of my face, and yet claim that my low confidence prevents me from submitting other artwork. It is true though, I promise. And do not think I am not judgemental over my self-portraits. Believe me, I am.
I suppose I've always been the "Let's put the cart in front of the horse and see what happens" kind of girl... But that's another matter entirely.
Hmm.. The combination of my inability to form coherent sentences, or paragraphs for that matter, and instead using sentences derived directly from my mind, with the fact that my mind is sporadic probably makes a lot of what I say confusing.
But in general: I've stopped posting for a while to practice doing something I really love and to make sure that I'm not falling into one category. Also, because I have some things going on right now in my world, nothing to worry about though.
Anyway, Thanks for reading this ramble, have a good Halloween by the way everyone.
-Stacey